Happy Canonization Day Sweet Saint Teresa of Calcutta.
I'm so happy for you and proud of you, you dear, sweet lady!
Your love and sweetness live on all over the world - thank you for being salt & light! Sigh!
Of all the pictures I've ever seen of her, these are my favorites:
For the past week or so, everywhere we look, as Catholics people are giving the History of and listing the Quotes of Mother Teresa... which I have thoroughly enjoyed re-reading. Bloggers and artists and stores, they want us to buy the things they have depicting this great Saint... and we do... and I did! And to tell you the truth, I had a similar post written, but I don't want MY post to be like everyone else's, so I want you to hear my heart on this one.
I first saw Mother Teresa, she was with Saint (then Pope) John Paul II. I had heard of her here and there... but I was young and she was on the other side of the world, and I was still pretty non-committed to living my life FULLY the right way. Sigh. The next time I remembered seeing her was with Princess Diana. I knew a little about her, other than articles I read here and there. Everyone was fascinated with her. She brought the plight of the poor in Calcutta to the forefront, in my opinion. And she was always smiling.
It wasn't until I dug deeper that I learned about how scared and lost she was just like me. Not because of the same situations, but still - we have that in common. You see, God is not always OBVIOUS in our hearts and minds. And she didn't even know for sure He was with her. She couldn't feel HIS presence... "not even in the Eucharist". She had a huge crisis of Faith and she kept on serving and giving because THAT is what she knew how to do. None of us ever knew it. When I read this about her, I was so deeply and personally touched by that.
Can you imagine how scared she was? How lost she felt? And she persevered. We could all see God in her. We could all see Him all around her. No doubt He was there all along, but she could not feel Him. Scary! God blessed her heart though. He showed her. And I'm so happy for her.
I will share with you that I have been there. I have had crisis of faith moments, days, weeks, months... I know God is here. But I can't feel him. I push away because I feel so very unworthy. My life has been full of strife, abuse, etc... and there have been many times it sure was hard to even feel like there was a God. I used to say to myself, "how can you possibly really be a Christian if you doubt so much?" "Maybe you really are NOT a good enough Catholic for God to embrace you!" "After all, I thought I was Catholic, and practiced for decades, and I wasn't." "Was God angry with me that He let so many bad things happen to me?" And my sweet friend and Mentor came into my life when I needed her most.
Mother Teresa was instrumental in helping me TRULY forgive myself for having an abortion. I thought I had forgiven myself with the help of Father Henry, but it wasn't until I read her speech on abortion that she gave in DC, where I realized no matter what I did, God still loved me. He made me... He loves me. HERE is a blog post I did where I include that speech (It's long, look for the blue lettering).
Look at her face, how loving she is in the pictures. When I think of her, I picture her rough hands around mine, her wrinkly sweet face with the loving eyes, saying, "come with me child, walk in my steps. Don't give up on yourself, God won't. I won't. It's ok!"
If I was going to write her a letter, it would look like this:
Dear Blessed Mother Teresa,
You were a living Saint and now your day has come that you will forevermore be Saint Teresa of Calcutta. We all knew you were going to be a Saint. I'm so sorry that you lived your life scared and in a dark place. But I'm so thankful that you share this part of your life so that people like me, who have dark periods, can be assured that God is with us.
Thank you for your example. Thank you for your love of God. Please continue to watch over me. Pray for me and all our brothers and sisters. Congratulations!
Love you dearly, EmilyI am still a work-in-progress. I need more humility, less ego. I need more patience (ACTUAL patience, not trials to learn it).... I need to keep busy in better ways and get things done. I need to believe God when He says he loves me and put the past behind me... boy, I have so much work to do. Sigh. But through Saints like her, I know I am not alone. They worked, they struggled, they went through everything I did and more... and they are SAINTS! It gives me so much HOPE! She's my friend, She's my Mentor, She's a SAINT! Glory be to God!
I'm so excited for today. I already have these things at home. It's a Saint Teresa of Calcutta Back Pack Zipper Pull and Card. SaongJai is one of my favorite shops on Etsy. Anyway... The card is in my son's room and the pull is on my Bible Cover. YAY
Additionally, I wanted to tell ya'll about an Instagram giveaway that Adrianna at @Mylittlefeltfriends is having with a group of Catholic Crafters. The items are pictured below. Go visit her on FaceBook to learn how to enter at My Little Felt Friends!
Thank you for reading my post. Saint Teresa of Calcutta, PRAY FOR US! May we live our lives in love and mercy like you did, even in the dark times.
Hugs & Blessings, Dear Ones!